Only In Stacking Books Can The Tree Feel Its Weight Again
I am so fucking sick of nations
and the men who love them
the number of suicides
this afternoon hiding
in bottom of a cup
I feel feral out here
found a man who likes me like that
found a man who lives the way I do
7 years on the road anniversary soon
you only have to destroy
yourself for love until it is normal
which makes love normal
and refuse to live a day without it
an inferno if it
at 16 sleeping with
my mother’s boyfriend
I was overwhelmed with it
solids form around you until you
struggle no more beneath it
feel throat open in a word
naming new stars moving across
the ceiling from the disco ball
constellations with stories to
soften hardened hearts
we finish the night
reading poetry out loud
last night Erica Kaufman’s
mind blowing Post Classic
poetry and love
sure know how to
hang a Welcome sign out
measure and transmit from
the pink and adorable telemetry
no more waiting between parenthesis
we now excel in the ether while holding hands
CA Conrad is the author of nine books of poetry and essays, including their latest books JUPITER ALIGNMENT: (Soma)tic Poetry Rituals (Ignota Books, forthcoming 2020) and While Standing in Line for Death (Wave Books), which won a Lambda Book Award.